Always Possibilities

Three rejections in one day on my manuscript was too much for me. I sat down in front of the computer and began to sob. Feelings of inadequacy felt like a sword through my heart and at that moment I decided that I wouldn’t pursue another query, but instead take it as a sign that I wasn’t supposed to be an author.

As if like magic, a text message from my best friend came through asking how I was. I replied with bitterness and negativity over my bleak situation. Instead of giving me sympathy, she told me that it made me one step closer to MY agent and that the others just weren’t mean to be. What? No sympathy? No poor, poor Kristy?

Then the very next day she had the audacity of asking me if I had sent out my new queries yet. Honestly, at that point I was about ready to burn my manuscript and call it gone. And give her a piece of mind. I didn’t, though, and replied with a simple ‘no’. When my husband asked if I wanted to ride along to the bookstore, I gave him my dangerous look. How could I possibly browse the bookstore when they all had book deals and I didn’t? I crossed my arms in front of me and answered, ”Absolutely NOT”. I stuck out my bottom lip in a pout and offered a sniffle for extra drama. It didn’t work.

He talked me into going with an offer, errr bribe, of one of my downfalls; a caramel Frappachino. I made the most of it while I sipped my misery away in the extra whipped topping I talked the Barista into giving me. Peeking through my competition, it was then that I realized something. I was treating everything as, well, competition and not looking inside of my own journey. My own possibilities. Rainer Maria Rilke is quoted as saying “There is only one journey: going inside yourself.” Was I loving the writing process?

Absolutely! Was it fulfilling me? Yes! That approval that I was asking for wasn’t coming from a true place, though. And it was then that I had the revelation that the door is always open to possibilities, and it wasn’t the agent’s doing, but me.
Walt Disney was fired by a newspaper editor because “he lacked imagination and had no good ideas.” Van Gogh only sold one painting, but kept painting. Charles Schultz had every cartoon he submitted rejected by his high school yearbook staff. And remember Walt, well Disney wouldn’t hire him either. Lucille Ball was told she couldn’t act and needed to find a new profession. Harrison Ford was told the same. “Balding, skinny, can dance a little,’ they said of Fred Astaire at his first audition. Beethoven’s music teacher declared him ‘hopeless’ at composing.

And there are countless more who continued to find that journey within themselves and succeed. But there are many of us who give in and give up. We have stifled our life because of a critic who implied we were not good enough.

“Remembering that you have both wins and losses along the way. I don’t take either one too seriously.” Carl Lewis.
There are always possibilities. So whether you are feeling down about a relationship, or lack of one, a job, or lack of a job that you love, you are closing the door on your possibilities. Don’t compete with others on what you believe they have (believe me - those that look to have the perfect relationship rarely do), but instead keep your door open to the possibilities so that YOUR job or YOUR mate will be there when the timing is right.
I have several books that will be on the book shelves very soon, however the one that I love still hasn’t been picked up. However, my door is open and I continue to pursue the agent that IS mine. It will happen and I refuse to sob in my Frappachino again.

Posted by Kristy Robinett at 5:35 AM

Found this post on cafemom- Reposting

What’s going on? A potent download of cosmic energy with three eclipses have been affecting us all. Opening ourselves to new energy brings up big change at the cellular levels. Many of us have been feeling very strange. Having moments of fever and achiness and sometimes digestive problems on and off; fever, nausea, aching backs, aching arms and joints, feeling disoriented and lightheaded, feelings of inertia, panic, deep grief and sleeplessness. Some are experiencing extreme anxiety, panic, sleeplessness. This is part of the experience of the expansion.

Many people are feeling like they no longer know what to do with their lives – they know that things are changing and they don’t know exactly what to do but that they want to do something different. Others, after feeling this way for the past year, have found their paths and are moving forward with conviction and commitment. This includes people who a few months ago felt completely lost and unsure of what they wanted to do. Everyone is at their own place in Divine timing of the evolutionary process.
As you ride the waves of change, trust your instincts. Trust your guidance, trust your “gut.” Trust in your ability to discern what is your highest path and purpose. And when you don’t know, do nothing. Many are diving deep into their beings to experience the heart of their soul. We see relationships changing as people can no longer hide from the truth in themselves. This can create much confusion and upset, but know that the path within is paved with love.

Tree of life center me. Enlighten me. Give me wings to fly~